Well, I'm taking the no solids thing to the next level. I am going to start juice fasting (starting today actually!) I bought the Hollywood 48 hour miracle diet (2 of them) which I KNOW is a waste of money because it is just concentrated juice but I am a sucker for gimmicks so I am going to do those, and then I am going to go on a regular juice fast until Easter. I'll keep posting.

Well yesterday was horrible, not only did I go WAAAAAAAAY beyond my maximum calorie intake (like horribly bad) but I also ate solid foods which means I screwed up for Lent :( I have sinned. But I am back on track today. There will be lots of drinking occurring tonight so I will have to be very careful about my intake today.

B- slimquick- 180 cals
L- tomato soup with cheese and crackers (soggy of course)- 300 cals?

So far then I have had 480 cals. If I don't eat dinner tonight and then drink my Jack and diet Cokes tonight I should be alright.

I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL SUNDAY!!!!!!!!! HOTTEST GUY EVER IS COMING TO SEE ME WHOOO HOOOO. *sigh*
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UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO I succeeded in not eating (drinking rather) anything else with calories for the rest of the day and I had two captain and diet cokes (200 cals each?) tonight which means I had a total of 880 calories, which is a LOT but would have been SOOOO much more if I had eaten today. I feel AWESOME about how well I did! And "the hottest guy ever" totally told his BROTHER about me and showed him pictures and he thinks I'm cute! And his bro lives halfway across the country. Which #1 means he is talking about me to his family, and #2 means he has the approval of one of his bros which is a huge step in the door. I am so ecstatic right now! I don't want to fall in love with this guy but there is definitely potential here. Sunday is going to be so much fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I'm worried about getting intimate because this guy has like the perfect face and body...and I know how to hide my fat well with the way I dress but the whole underneath the clothes thing...very very bad. What do I do??? I'm trying to cut back more and more but it isn't happening fast enough! There is no way I will be thin enough by the time it is time to take our clothes off! We are going on our third date on Sunday and we already feel the tension so pretty soon it is bound to happen at one point or another. Crap.

I have my third date with the "most gorgeous guy ever" on Sunday. And I feel thinner this morning. Things are looking up Maybe I'm even back in the 130's again, although I'm not going to get my hopes up.

Okay, so I know nobody reads this but maybe someone will come across it anyway: what is your perspective on boyfriends/girlfriends, husbands/wives hanging out with other men and women friends on a regular basis (alone or with other people)? Like, they were already friends before the significant other came along, but they hang out one on one. Is that okay? It kind of makes me uncomfortable, not gonna lie. Okay, then what about having ex girlfriends/ex boyfriends as those friends. Let me know your opinion if you stumble across this and read it PLEASE!

Today's Intake:

1 slimfast + 1.5 c milk = 340 cals
1/2 c low fat ice cream :( = 120 cals
cheddar broc. soup with crackers- a whopping 280 cals


total so far= 740 cals :( OMG WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME...why  am I such a cow?!?!? I want to purge so bad, it isn't even NOON yet. I am going to sit here for two minutes and think about what I have done...and then probably make my way to the toilet. No...yes...no...ahhhh

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UPDATE:
Okay, I thought about what I did and decided against purging since I am really trying to stop. Instead, I decided that I will not eat anything else for the rest of the day and just drink a shit ton of water. All of my friends are going out partying tonight but I am going to stay home and study and clean my room. And drink LOTS of water. NO FOOD.

UPDATE #2
I ACTUALLY DID IT! I managed not to eat anything else so I still have only eaten 740 calories. Plus I did P90X so that had to burn at least 200 calories, AT LEAST. So at very most my intake today was 540. Getting better!